Today’s challenge: The little girl inside.
I remember the first time my therapist opened the door of my mind to the fact that there was a little girl (me) inside who was still about six years old. She lived through a traumatic experience she didn’t understand, which caused her to be paralyzed. She’s hid behind the door viewing my life’s experiences through the thin sliver she can see from her hiding place. She’s afraid, she’s immature, she’s prone to throwing tantrum fits when she feels threatened. Over the years I (the adult version of myself) have worked with her as her fear has caused seemingly unreasonable responses. But for the most part, I’ve just tried to keep her sated.
As you know, recently I’ve struggled with my daughter. I’ve battled fear, and anger, and depression over this struggle…seemingly unreasonable. As I looked at myself; specifically this struggle through my “eyes of Faith”, the Holy Spirit has shown me the little girl inside. Once again she’s terrified of being left alone by the people she loves! She isn’t going to be soothed with kind words or reason, her fear has caused her to lapse back into the tantrum of a two-year old.
The enemy of my soul is urging me to “keep her sated” once again…by any means. But…I’m wearing the Belt of Truth…and I “see” her for who she is…a frightened little girl who needs Jesus.
Mark 10:13-15: People were bringing the little children to Jesus for Him to place His hands on them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them. When Jesus saw this, He was indignant and told them, “Let the little children come to Me, and do not hinder them! For the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly, I tell you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.